Dang it. I am not a good blogger. I have to apologize because I keep forgetting to actually blog. And one cannot have a blog, without blogging. Otherwise, it is just a waste of cyber space, and I am not doing my job.
Speaking of my job...
There is a lot of change going on at the office. We have a new Head Honcho. And in the sports world, we all now that new GM's mean new coaches, and new coaches mean new players. Hey just look at the Chiefs. (*though it really doesn't seem to matter with the Chiefs. They sucked last year and this). Well, with the "fluidity" at work, I am now seriously trying to figure out what to happen if I get "traded" to another team. I don't think I would be angry or mad. Perhaps if I had a house, a husband and a family who relied on me, I'd freak out. But because I am Single, Renting, With Cats... I don't have that insane pressue of providing. Honestly if I was "let go", it would really be an opportunity to figure out what I want to do with myself. It would be a luxury, yes, but I have that luxury because I don't have kids.
But the question is "What's next?"
What's keeping me here in Kansas City?
What's preventing me from heading back East to be with family?
Or... is it time to move on to a new adventure?
Kansas City is great. My friends here are wonderful, great co-workers, love the history, etc. It's really become my "home", which is quite suprising as I'm a true blue New Englander. And what about relationships? It's been a year since my last boyfriend. It's been a good year, mostly alone minus the occasional date. But that's why it was nice. Spending a year regrouping and resting. And now there could be a possibility on the horizon. But is it enough of a distraction to keep me from saying "fuck it" and just leaving?
It's sort of trying to combine everything in your life that is a "failure" , and making it balance out with things that are somewhat normal. Feh.
This may be my "quarter life crisis". And really, it's not so bad.